Mental Disorders

[PinkDog]

Hello all. I'm new to the forum. I've had an issue for about 6 months and was wondering if anyone has any advice. I am a 24 year old female and I have been ruminating (regurgitating food) right after I eat anything. It usually gets worse after I drink some water with the meal or after the meal. I have no heartburn accompanying and I am getting a bit nervous that this may have mental causalities? To my own knowledge, I am not anorexic or bulimic (though I am very weight conscious and I am a chronic dieter--i count calories, weigh myself daily, work out regularly...but nothing completely unhealthy in my opinion). I am of healthy weight at 108 lbs at height of 5'2" and I am small by nature. The most I've ever weighed is 120 lbs. Just curious if anyone has ever heard of this and if they have any ideas on what the heck I should do/consider before alerting my family to this issue.

My symptoms are that after I eat, there is pressure in my esophagus...so I intentionally try to burp and, instead, food comes up. It is not sour in odor as some reflux sites suggest. It tastes just as it did prior to me ingesting it. I'm a tad frightened now because I stumbled onto a site that indicated it could be a mental disorder, and perhaps what I deem as "pressure in my esophagus" could instead be my unknowing yet intentional regurgitation? ok ok, i'm getting a touch complicated here. I just need help! So any knowledge, insight would be great. Thank you!

Ps- I should probably add that I oftentimes get extremely anxious and in turn, I have the sudden urge to...umm...make a bowel movement, at the most inopportune times, typically on transportation (like trains, subways, etc). I know this is completely mental because I usually have to talk myself down from it and the "urge" goes away. I don't know if this can be somehow related, seeing as they both are dealing with the GI tract in some form.

[sure]

As far as your text goes I get the same thing and have had the same thing since I was very young... my solution was to change my diet to more wholesome food, however, don't you think seeing an MD would give you an alternative and provide someone to blame if you've got any mental problem to overcome at this time? Besides, there's a lot of unknowns at this time... is everything alright at home, do you have a goal or definite plan for the near future, that said, is everyone treating you the way you expect or are there misunderstandings a lot of the time, hmm, you could be spreading yourself thinner and thinner by not having a goal or plan in motion to give focus to your obvious robust nature?
Just a few thoughts to put you at ease, hope it goes away, I'll have an eye on your progress in the future and hope you stay in touch.
Yours truly.
RM

[PinkDog]

Dear RM,

Thank you for your reply! Hmm, well, I haven't thought about an MD yet, because I am able to overcome my other problem by simply calming myself down. I figure this may be indeed a diet issue. I typically limit myself to salads, lean proteins and fruits, with the occassional indulgence of pizza or chocolate...so I can't see what else I can alter to improve it, but will try.

As far as future plans go, I am pretty set as far as game plan, though there are some uncertainties (specifically, I am applying to graduate school, which will lock me in for the next 5 years of my life) and I'm afraid I might not get in. So perhaps this could be contributing. Additionally, I just broke up with a boyfriend, but again, this rumination has been happening for the past 6 months. As far as home life goes, I have been blessed to have a nurturing and wonderful family. I am as close as one can get with one's parents and I have two brothers with whom I get along great with (sibling spats aside!).

The only possible thing I can think of is my dissatisfaction with my body image? The media certainly feeds into these insecurities. And I have noticed that I tend to think in ways detrimental to myself, such as "The reason why I haven't found the right guy is because I'm a little chunky. I need to lose weight and then I can be good enough for someone." I know this is a terrible thought, but it is a strong motivator to diet.

Sorry about the novel! I will try first to alter my diet a bit, perhaps chew more and take my time eating. Thank you again for your reply!

[sure]

Good to hear from you, I just have one question... if you're only two pounds underweight by my reckoning and you have all your weight behind that into what you have in mind for yourself in the future, could it be that you've set your goal thermostat far to low for what you know you can achieve as a person...you want someone to feed you nectar of the gods... or are you in the Count of Monte Christo rut... either way we won't know what to tell your family until you talk to your Doctor eh?
Any thing else on your mind, good luck with your studys, it's the thought that counts!
RM

[sure]

Have you looked up "globus hystericus" as an answer to your question?
Just a thought.
RM